I’m rewiring my brain by reading more books

I just finished my 3rd book in a week, its surreal, and honestly i feel like it’s the bigger part of me starting this blog and trying to accomplish something more with my life. I grew up reading, i started reading in kindergarten all to prove to a girl that i was as smart as her. Then i just couldn’t stop, i read hundreds of books, and its something i took a lot of pride in, and then once i hit my late teenage years, I stopped, Netflix and social media and YouTube were in full swing and were and are addictive. that along with getting into recreational drugs, and maybe a few psychedelics, i became comfortably numb. i didn’t need anything else, and my attention span was quickly being destroyed. i found it harder to watch movies let alone read, just the mindless scrolling of TikTok. but now I’ve finished a 3rd book in a week. i can’t believe it, i feel like i was dead or in a long sleep and i finally woke up, that before i was on autopilot and i wasn’t the pilot. because every now and then I’d wake up and tell myself this isn’t what you want, and I’d feel deep immense regret, and to cope with it, i would do exactly the things i was doing, pacifying myself with dopamine. I’m feeling more motivated, calm and feel like im making real progress towards becoming who i dreamt i would be. It was in these books that made me start dreaming again, and i know that books contain free knowledge, and i know that i can learn from them, and im the type to share what i know, so that’s why we’re all gonna make it, haha. I am just feeling very good about this, i feel like God has given me the green light and the inspiration and drive to do this and im going full steam ahead. i’ve spent the last few days creating my website my blog, and planning out content and it’s been difficult, but i find myself throwing all my free time into it so that must mean something. im excited for the content to really flesh itself out and become a good channel for my voice, its also weird that someone could read this someday, anyways goodnight, sleep tight, i love you all